Where would we be without good friends?
I had a breakdown in the breakroom today.
Luckily, I had someone to collect my tears and stir them into a reality elixir to remind me that I'm crying unnecessarily.
My good friend and co-worker walked with me to get coffee this morning. As I pulled my Coffeemate out of the refrigerator, the tears flowed freely. It was a good thing I had her fur-lined jacket to bury my face in as I cried on her shoulder. As she hugged me, I felt a 30-second sweep of hopelessness wash over me and I wished myself small enough to hide in the pink soft tufts of her collar. But her words calmed me, reminded me that I made the right decision, even though some days I feel so alone it hurts down to the bone.
It's the idea that I left a man who truly enjoyed spending time with me... enjoyed my company and doing things for me... he enjoyed me. It kills me. I walked away. Now I get hurt every day.
I'm not crying anymore but it's been a rough day.
posted by Elisabeth @ 4:27 PM
2 Comments:
Awe, A-Girl, I hope you are feeling better! But remember, you made the decisions to leave him for a reason and if things were meant to be with him, you know that it would have worked out.
Stay strong and hang in there! And don't forget: You are not alone, you have us e-buddies just a click away!
alannajoy
i'm feeling MUCH better, thank you! it was a brief lapse in sanity but i've recovered.
thanks so much for the words of encouragement. :)
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