Blah.

Another day passes... and what's going on? The same freaking thing that happened a year ago. Just when I think something new is coming along or an exciting change is just around the corner, I realize I'm in the same exact place I've always been. Maybe for an instant, possibly a day, I'm up, flying high, or I might feel sluggishly low, but it's typically back to the same ol', same ol'.

A year ago today, I was dating a guy - Plan J. If you were reading my blog a year ago, his name might ring a bell. I wasn't super interested in him but he was a great distraction from the broken heart that resulted from Plan B. Plan J. now sits a few cubicles away from me and he and I chit chat on a regular basis. Weird, needless to say. But it's not odd that nothing ever amounted out of that relationship. And who do you think is asking me to hang out this weekend? It's like I'm re-living my life from a year ago.

I just interviewed for a team lead position on my team. I didn't get it. I haven't gotten a lot of jobs I have interviewed for lately. I sit here in the same position doing the same job that I was doing last year - very normal for some people. NOT normal for me.

I'm still alone. I'm still fighting with myself about my choices in life. I'm still wondering how my weekend is going to pan out. I'm still debating where I should live, what I should do, how to pay off my debt, who I should spend my time with, and most of all - am I happy with the person that I have become?